im human
nobody is obligating you to read this, mostly irrelevant.
There isn’t much on my mind recently other than the relationships I have with other people. I value my friendships A LOT but sometimes it seems like thats not really that much of a priority for other people, I especially value the connections I have with other women. I don’t think a man could ever show me as much compassion and understanding as a woman can but everyday another girl turns into a bird!!! At the end of the day no man will ever stand by you like a woman who loves you and losing sight of that will leave you in an incredibly vulnerable position. Obviously not all relationships are toxic but when problems arise or relationships end, who will u fall back on? Just don’t see the point in attaching you value to the attention men are willing to give you. There isn’t much more for me to say on that topic without making some people feel a certain way, that is if they ever even read this.
Other than that I have been thinking about what I want long term, I don’t think there is much I want to achieve. I would love to be recognized for the things that I create but in terms of a structure of life I kind of don’t really care abt the outcome. Success is defined by you and what you want but sometimes I feel like maybe I don’t have a definition of success that is big enough. Feng always talks about how “it’s never that deep” and honestly hearing that was really cringe to me but I kind of have the same mindset, I think I just need to re-evaluate everything i’ve considered law up until now.
On another note I kind of hateee the way men perceive me and speak to me. I saw that thing where Aya got her butt slapped by some guy and it was brushed off by an accident by some which in my opinion is ridiculous. What I keep circling back to is how people who don’t think it was an accident are finding ways to blame her!! The way she was dressed was so irrelevant especially because she was already visibly uncomfortable, how is that and invitation to touch someone without their consent in a sexual sense?? It feels like people are constantly looking for reasons to hate a woman and talk shit about her. Thats why I lwk don’t give a fuck about hypergamy. Why are women obligated to like men they don’t deem attractive? Nobody is forcing men to like women who aren’t that conventially attractive so why should women also have to conform to that? If men are so commonly bad people towards women then why be with someone you don’t find attractive, who the fuck wants to be treated like shit by someone who they don’t even really like that much? double negative. Also I know plenty of women in my personal life that deal with horrible circumstances from ugly men!! Sometimes it’s your fault people don’t like you, thats all I have to say about that.
This is pretty much all I have to express recently but my other updates might just be kind of irrelevant updates about my life, kind of like my tumblr but maybe a little more in depth.
